Crazy

Something crazy happened this morning, not as soon as I woke up, after my medications kicked in of course, but pretty close to it. I looked in the mirror and saw my dimple!! My dimple is coming back. My face is slowly becoming less cushionoid or round, swollen, and fat from the steroids. I used to have 2 dimples, but they've been mia since Dec. 2009. I can't believe it's been 2 years since my lungs started to fail, since bronchiolitis obliterans nearly killed me. I would have died Dec. 2 years ago had x not prayed to God and Santa that I get healthy. It's a miracle. I accepted steroids to survive and help out the miracle. It's a miracle I am still alive today in many ways. I'm a lucky blessed woman. Even crazier, this am I started feeling good. I had a little hop in my step, a swing in my hips, a gleam in my eye. I haven't had in a while. I took the opportunity to do something crazy: go out to do errands! I snagged J's car to get it's oil changed. I went grocery shopping to stock back up on food. This all felt great bc A. The oil change guys think I'm cute enough to flirt with and B. One great woman/friend/supporter sent us some help so I could pay for it. Thanks CW. It was the first time in too long to remember that I wasn't stressed at the grocery store juggling coupons, the flier, and my list trying to spend next to nothing and eat. I was still juggling everything. I just wasn't stressed I knew I had moolah! Exciting to be fed with less stress, but I've warn my cute self out. Its time for a shower.
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