Baldies' Blog began originally in the UK by a 26 year old journalist with a blood cancer on a mission to inform the world about bone marrow donation.

He has since died, and I took on the cause of making cancer care more transparent for everybody.

Cancer is a disease that will touch everybody through diagnosis or affiliation: 1 in 2 men will be diagnosed and 1 in 3 woman will hear those words, "You Have Cancer."

I invite you to read how I feel along my journey and
how I am continuing to live a full life alongside my Hodgkin's lymphoma, with me controlling my cancer, not my cancer controlling me.

I hope that "Baldies' Blog" will prepare you to handle whatever life sends you, but especially if it's the message, "You Have Cancer."

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Wednesday, January 21, 2009

The Detox Diary

I’m on a mission to detoxify myself and get my body back in fighting form.
However, it would be unwise of me to undo quickly what it took three years to create. It would be like a heroin addict with 10+ years of experience stopping cold turkey.
That sounds like a bad idea and conjures up images of cold sweats and seizures in my mind.
I do think this is an important part of healing. I want to get rid of whatever is in my body that may be contributing to my cancer.
I told my care team at Dana Farber, they acknowledged they could not stop me. They advised me to proceed slowly and cautiously.
I was. I was doing a great job controlling myself. . . . .until today.
Previously, I eased in Quercitin C. (Quercitin-C 2 tabs twice a day after meals (Maintains blood vessel integrity • Decreases sensitivity to allergens • Reduces swelling and pain of arthritis • Promotes circulation • Reduces your risk of certain cancers •Antibacterial properties •Protects the skin from UV damage. See
The plan is to incorporate one new supplement a week from a German naturopathic regimen I have taken previously.
That’s all good, no problem.
Today, I decided to up the ante a little bit. I decided caffeine had to go.
I always wondered what the problem was with caffeine. It seemed like a perfectly good thing to me. I can understand why God gave it to humanity, but so many people have told me that there is something bad about it. I thought maybe all those people were seeing something I didn’t want to.
Then, low and behold, serendipitously, Aunt Pauline dropped off a macrobiotic book. When I flipped it open, WHAM, I see an anti-caffeine warning across the page.
The book says my beloved coffee comes with pesticides! It’s says caffeine makes us anxious. Caffeine alters the Yin/Yang balance in our bodies inevitably leaving us exhausted.
I decided to drop the coffee and substitute tea with anti-oxidants instead.
YAY. Go me for actively participating in health seeking behaviors. Life was fine this morning.
J bought 100% juice spritzers for me, so I can now drink natural, sugar free beverages instead of soda.
So no caffeine for today. Also, to make matters worse, I’ve never had a “spritzer” that didn’t contain alcohol. This is also a very new thing.
It is all in the goal of good health.
Then, I was reading about the Budwig Diet. It talked a lot about flaxseed. So when my chiropractor brought it up today, I thought that was just the stars aligning too!
I signed up and added that goodness to my lunch.
Except, it isn’t goodness in me.
I’m not just talking about the fact that it is staging a detox coup, I’m saying it’s disgusting. It feels gross anyway.
I woke up with my muscles aching, and no amount of stretching has helped me. My head is banging, and I’m beginning to think I am severely addicted to caffeine. No amount of TEA is going to scratch this itch.
To make matters worse, that beneficial flax seed has certainly done something. It just happened to do that something to my bowels. Not so fabulous.
To top it off, I discovered Joanna Budwig, the budwig diet creator, still died of cancer! Isn’t that evidence it didn’t completely work?
Anyway, I’m absorbing teachings at this moment. I’m taking bits and pieces of knowledge spread by so many great minds and making it my own.
I just didn’t anticipate my body would revolt.


Anonymous said...

I certainly applaud your decision to eat more healthily, but please exercise caution. From what little I know, there are certain vitamins and herbal treatments that can interact with presecriptions.
So, do it, by all means, but discuss what you are taking with your primary caretakers. I am sure that you are already doing this...just wanted to reiterate the idea.
Also, I am pretty sure that you have withdrawal from caffeine, and that usually involves headaches and other subtle pains.
Take care...

Dani said...

The caffeine, is so hard to give up my husband gave up smoking before he could give up caffeine, and yes it was so hard, and the small withdrawals were worst, headache were the worst... but I know you can do it, take care hopefully will call tomorrow, and can't wait till Sunday.

Anonymous said...

Hi Hillary. Over 10 years ago, I gave up coffee for Lent on a dare. I didn't know I was addicted until I stopped drinking it! WOW!!! Some 2 day headache, but then that was it. I switched to one cup of caffeinated tea a day, and at the end of Lent, didn't go back to coffee. I still love the smell of coffee and coffee ice cream, but keep away from the caffeine. A few years back I even switched to decaf tea. It's worth it! You'll also save $$! I agree with what others have said about proceeding with caution.
As always, I'm thinking of you and have you and your family in my prayers.