Baldies' Blog began originally in the UK by a 26 year old journalist with a blood cancer on a mission to inform the world about bone marrow donation.

He has since died, and I took on the cause of making cancer care more transparent for everybody.

Cancer is a disease that will touch everybody through diagnosis or affiliation: 1 in 2 men will be diagnosed and 1 in 3 woman will hear those words, "You Have Cancer."

I invite you to read how I feel along my journey and
how I am continuing to live a full life alongside my Hodgkin's lymphoma, with me controlling my cancer, not my cancer controlling me.

I hope that "Baldies' Blog" will prepare you to handle whatever life sends you, but especially if it's the message, "You Have Cancer."

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Monday, July 26, 2010

"Everyone thinks I'm going to die." 
"Well, if everyone thought that about me, I wouldn't do it." -The Secret Garden.

 I keep having a recurring dream that I have a big book report I need to finish to graduate high school and I haven't finished. I can't even remember where the class is its been so long since I attended. Sometimes I'm absent from skipping or from an illness. I wake up stressed thinking about how ironic it is that the subject holding me back is hs english, the one subject I enjoyed. I've got to wonder what it means. I'm reassured that I'll fulfill my contribution to the world, which I think is life's purpose, but I must be feeling like time is coming up and I haven't quite worked my magic yet. I think the purpose must be simpler than I believe. I mean, why high school english?

 The one full bald spot I have is in the back of my head in the shape of a cross. It's a funny place to have a bald spot. It doesn't follow normal rubbing patterns but its there and its definitely a cross, which makes me smile. I feel like I've been marked for good.

Pictures from vacation are coming as soon as I can stay awake long enough. These pics are going to make you all want to run up to the great state of NH.

1 comment:

Loraine Ritchey said...

There is a meaning to your dream .bit like the one I have ( used to be an actrees) only I am due on stage and realized I missed all the rehersals and don't know my lines and I am busy trying to memorize the lines off stage and panic is paramount....- it was explained to me what it meant but in my fog of grief I have forgotten.. happens a lot living in my split world
but I do remember the meaning of the one where your teeth fall out that is supposed to be that you wished you hadn't said what you said or communicated... and the one where you are driving at a brick wall and have to stand on the brakes to just get the car stopped before the crash... only I think I have crashed.... I am a puddle.........

You are truly wonderful and I hope all your dreams are worthy of your strength and beauty Loraine